Cant Sleep

FUUUUUUCK!!!! So yeah I cant sleep for shit lately. I donno I've had so many this on my mind lately that when I try to sleep everything just goes to blaaaaaaa. Theres school and the fact that I've completely blown off 4 years of my life. I applied to UIC but I'm so scared that I wont get in it fucking sucks. Then theres the fact that I've been out of school for so long that I feel that I'm just gonna fail out. Then theres also the fact that I've dropped out of school 3 times already, I'm scared that I will do it again. Theres my car that I love so much and have invested so much time and energy into that I cant bare to let her go. It sucks owning a Honda knowing that at any moment that shit can get stolen by low life busters. Man if my shit ever got stolen I'd fuckin lose it, I dont think I could bare seeing my car stripped to nothing. Theres the opposite sex, man fucking girls are weird. Seeing everything that Tym is going thru makes me wanna stay single and shit but theres no fighting not wanting to be alone. On top of that lets say I'd get married one day and its all gravy for a while but I've seen and heard of so many divorces that its almost pointless to even try. I mean shit my bro and my sis are divorced already, my mom is on her 5th, and I know so many friends whose parents got the D and it sucks.

I donno maybe thats why we surround ourselves with friends and people we love. Thos are the people you want in times of need and times of despair. Even tho sometimes it may feel like they might not be there for you and you feel all alone, they will always be there for you and always help you.